Numb inside

Figure 1: Sunset silhouette. 

The breeze is warm and the sky is cloudy, unable to watch the sunset but enjoyed the calming beating of the waves against the stones. Walked together but not so close.

The silhouette shown in Figure 1, shows two person who seems close but not too close. There is distance between them, but not too far yet they spend time together, chatting while the sun slowly dies down the horizon. 

For now this is the sort of relationship and no more, There are reasons for this and do not need to be understood clearly why. Whenever asked, will just kept silent and wisp away further.

Felt cold, deep inside and there will always be a never-ending winter inside my heart.

"She's now a resident engineer back at homeland, wonder how she's doing, She has her friends and have mine own, the distance is numbing and thawing my heart further"

Far Away..

I need you close, missing you're touch, smile, but you're so far away, I feel so numb and alone, it is my own doing I know, still when the storms are coming, I hold myself close to you, my memories with you, I kept telling my self to be strong..

Some what, my feelings for you kept going up and down, never stable as the distance is great, still my principle holds me up together, no matter others come by to take me away or make me feel better, I know you're the best for me, I'll hold on to my principles, I'll hold on to you...

Distance..

Figure 1: Woke up with a mixed up thought.

Early morn I woke up with a start,
I rubbed my eyes and stretched,
Still mesmerizing the moment,
Simple dreams I dreamed,

It was still calm and quiet,
And I knelt and prayed,
As I took every blessing into account,
Everything matters and thanked,

I was never an extreme extrovert,
Nor has the distance had me changed,
Principle matters the most,
Keeps me strong when my feelings raged,

Little did I know the gift,
Which had me utterly transformed,
This gave me a stronger lift,
To survive this distance amazed..