May '14: Best Wishes

It has been more than one month and a half since I last posted in my blog. I have been very busy with a lot of issues at my work place as well as preparations for my upcoming big event. I hope that everything goes well within this year not only for me but for all of you out there. 

I was out at in the dark with some lovely people in the night and it was very cold close to the mountain at my homeland. It was pitch black and only lights were far away in the horizon. It was really breath taking the skies. I was so in love with the blanket of shimmering light.

My love saw meteors three times and made wishes three times. I hope her wishes come true, she wouldn't tell me what is it. But she is a blessing to me, and brings happiness to me. I hope that this lasts till death for I know that nothing in this world will be immortalized.

Figure 1: Starry nights.

Standing in the dark

Figuree 1: Sun-stars in the dark.

As I watched you from far away, I knew that things wouldn't get better. Your attitude is so poisonous that people around you hate to be with you or even have a decent conversation. You seemed so proactive while all the while you are not only slacking off but messing up with other people's job.

I can't help but notice that everything you do is for your own glory. Your deeds always have to point to yourself to dignify and state your point. After all, is it you who have been doing all the great things, or your ill mistreated subordinates under your dictatorship.

Everything you say is the best way and you never take other's opinion into consideration. Uneasy when looking at other people developing themselves or just taking their own time to enjoy. Maybe you've been too alone, or just too selfish. Or it's just me, standing in the dark with my deep and dark assumptions.

Figure 2: As I stare at the flames.

Cold cold heart..

Speak as you might,
Those words may never seems right,
Thinking for the best,
Still haven't tried your hardest..

As you walk through this night,
Shining past me as if silent,
The wisp of pain is slight,
Showering me with fright..

Seeing through your heart,
Never knowing what is right,
Seems like you truly crave it,
The never ending winter blight..

A tear drops from the light,
Spills onto your cold heart,
Warm tear melts a part,
Slowly disappearing into the dark..

"The heart is hidden from most eyes, it can deceive without knowing yet also show the truest colors of life"

Numb inside

Figure 1: Sunset silhouette. 

The breeze is warm and the sky is cloudy, unable to watch the sunset but enjoyed the calming beating of the waves against the stones. Walked together but not so close.

The silhouette shown in Figure 1, shows two person who seems close but not too close. There is distance between them, but not too far yet they spend time together, chatting while the sun slowly dies down the horizon. 

For now this is the sort of relationship and no more, There are reasons for this and do not need to be understood clearly why. Whenever asked, will just kept silent and wisp away further.

Felt cold, deep inside and there will always be a never-ending winter inside my heart.

"She's now a resident engineer back at homeland, wonder how she's doing, She has her friends and have mine own, the distance is numbing and thawing my heart further"