Pa & Ma

This blog post is dedicated to the most special people in my life. They are the ones who brought me to life in this world and brought me up into the person I am now. I am so blessed by God, blessed to be able to know God and appreciate life the way other people couldn't because papa and mama taught me so.

Figure 1: Papa & Mama.

My parents are the most special people in the world. They are extra-ordinary people, who sacrificed time, energy, patience and passion just to take care of me and my siblings. I admit that I am born with a silver spoon in my mouth and that life starts easy for me.

My parents however, was born in the villages at my homeland and have to toil the soil with their parents (my grandparents) in order to earn a bowl of rice. Their lives were simple and hard. Education was a far cry away but papa's mom was the one who urged papa to further study.

Papa is a smart person, at a young age, he excelled in his studies and due to his mother's (grandma whom I never get to meet) sacrifice, papa was able to further his study. Papa's father (grandpa) was a hard person, who wanted papa to work in the fields, but grandma's vision was further away.

So, when I was born, papa has a vision for me, he never wanted me to feel the same experience that he gone through growing up. So, despite having a hard time teaching me and grooming me for the future, papa never gave up. Mama didn't gave up on me too, even though I was so hard headed.

Mama is also a very smart person, but mama never had the chance to continue studies. So, mama took care of me since I was small. I was so blessed to have mama in my life. Mama, taught me a lot of things, to take care of myself, to be wise and essentials to live.

But the most important thing mama and papa taught me is to never forget about God, the creator of all things. In life, I must never forget the little things and simple stories mama used to tell me when I was a baby, I must never forget the lessons she taught, from sewing to cooking and always be humble in life.

I love you mama and papa. Even though I am already older, I always need your guidance and care. I am sure blessed to be in the family with net, wina and dell. I hope to bring another special person to be your child by next year.

2am

Woke up at 2am in the morning and felt so blue. Just can't sleep for a bit, thinking of little things which matters the most to me. Had some mixed feelings and tried to sort it out calmly but failed miserably. Listened to this song for a bit, a song which I really liked since the 90s.

Arrghh!! I always hate to look back and think. I just need to get back to sleep.

Grandparents

Figure 1: Me & Grandpa.

On my mother's side, I have a grandmother and a grandfather. My grandmother, she has been a very kindly and loving grandmother despite her hard past of life, she always tries to be the best grandmother she can be. My beautiful memories about her are many, as during my time at polytechnic, I was always drawn to go back and visit despite being busy with studies there. 

My grandmother always cooks for me every morning fried rice or fried mee, which tastes so delicious that I ate so much. Grandma even bring me to town sometimes to accompany her to the market. Where I will carry all the stuff and after getting all the essentials, she will stop by a shop and we'll eat noodle in beef soup or "soto" together.

My grandmother passed away, some 3 years ago now, I was really sad when she went, as she has suffered for so long in life, yet to only have cancer and died suffering. I missed my grandmother and hope that G

I have a grandfather or my grandmother's husband. I don't have much fond memories with him, he is a very fiery old man and doesn't hesitates to hit me with a rattan when I was small. I always hear him screaming loud if there's anything wrong. My grandfather is a man filled with pride and ego.

Grandfather always goes hunting when I was very small, he has a shotgun and his shooting skills is very excellent. He could aim and shoot down an eagle in the skies. However, I was too afraid to approach him as he is a very scary person when I was still small. I don't like to be around him.

Even after, I was in polytechnic, I didn't speak much to him, and only just bring him around town to buy groceries and essentials. Not sure if its me or him, but still, I'm only among the other cousins who is daring to actually hang out and visit him. As I know, grandpa loves money and also gambling, something which I partially care about.

Now, I'm already in my final year, things are very hectic, and I need a lot of time in order to concentrate in my courses and final year project. I was doing field work at Seguntor Biomass Power plant, Sandakan when my grandfather called me, as I was busy, I didn't picked the phone. During the evening after the visit ended, I called him only to know that he is sick.

I visited him the next day, despite my lack of sleep, no matter how my perception of him during the past..