The best

I have always believed in trying my very best, even until the end of the show. Is life a show? I believe that life is more than that. That is why I always do my very best in everything, even though I lose heart, I still force myself to the limit so that I show my very best till the end and walk the talk.

I know that words plays a very important role in communicating our intentions as well as letting others know and be informed. However, words are empty if it is only spoken without anything that moves. So with words, actions must be prevalent in order for it to be relevant.

Every now and then, I am discourage by words of others, letting me down and pushing me away. Still deep in my heart, I persist that they may not meant all those mean things and I believe that I can do something to make it better. I knew that I have to do my best despite it all.

Figure 1: Once in a while I met the Phoenix.

The eldest

I am the eldest of the family, and it means a lot to be the eldest child. The eldest is the first to face the challenges of the world. A burden  has been placed on them which are the highest expectations especially from the parents and members of the family.

Figure 1: I am the champion.

It is important for the eldest in the family to realize his importance and role, which is to be an example to his younger siblings and display discipline especially in learning. However at a young age, the parents play a vital role in ensuring that the child understands by shaping and teaching closely.

Figure 2: Jon and Sullivan.

The eldest have the opportunity to be the first in the family to experience new things, be it food, pampering by the parents, early education, new toys and all the fine things that the family can provide. The eldest usually have the best and have grown to eventually pass it to the young ones.

Figure 3: Happy together.

So, Sullivan, this is your time, to do your best and make your parents proud. Life isn't perfect but by learning and be closer to God, this will strengthen you through this journey. Only through relationship with God does life bears a meaning. 

Figure 4: Looking forward.

A world of chances

Figure 1: A chance of a lifetime.

Every now and then, there are rare opportunities that I didn't reach out to grab. I knew about the opportunity was good but I still don't have the guts to go ahead and take the challenge. I saw the chance to explore a new place only to see that chance go without a try.

I have faith and believe in God. I always pray for guidance regarding chances as I am always afraid of the possibilities of failure in an attempt. This out of the world faith has made me to believe that the first chance to arrive that I will take whenever I prayed for it.

Even though chances come and go, I never believed in luck. I don't believe that someone end up rich or poor due to luck itself. To me, chances of a lifetime are rare but it is never a mistake to let go of a chance. People maybe dissapointed with you due to your decision but always stand firm.

If your chance haven't arrived, to have a dream job, to have a beautiful wife, to travel around the world or even just to taste delicious food, never be dismayed as there's always a chance, it may not be what we exactly wanted but it will be what we need.

God blesses each and everyone of us. 

Learning the hard way

Ever since I went to school, I have been spoon fed with knowledge, large spoonful of information which I sometimes am not even aware of or not interested of. I never find learning at my school engaging or interesting. I tend to dream off and draw while rejecting the spoon-fed food.

I am different, I do not like to receive something, without giving anything back, such as effort or diligence as in the end, it will be in vain and it is as if I have receive nothing. I might be such a selfish brat, as people around me, especially my whom parents are already trying their best.

I learn the hard way, I need to be pitched into tough trials and experience the heat, then I know that I have learned something. This way of learning is very painful and there are times when I had to bow my head down low and be mocked. It really hurts.

In the long run, as I matured, I have to always remind myself, to keep myself updated and always be aware of my surroundings. Everything changes, people, times and season follows with it. A storm might be coming which can destroy everything and the next a bright sunny day.

No matter what your preference for study is, there shouldn't be a reason not to learn. Never give up no matter what your method is. Learning should only stop once your breath flows out of your body. It is a life long commitment to learn and be a light to the world.

Figure 1: The wind of change.

A great start

Today is a very devastating yet tiring day. I am challenged mentally and physically. Tested at every single turn of the problem. One after another every problem seems to stems out as another one is rectified.

I find myself struggling at every step that I take, cautiously and carefully executing yet exhausting myself little by little.

I am supposed to be a troublesolver.. A troubleshooter, but my skills and experience is still yet to be proven and tested.

This is a tough call to make. Still not a valid reason to give up just yet, just like running, I need to hang in there.

Thank you August, I'll hang onto You Oh Lord..