Down with flu

Days has been a change of weather from hot sunny days to sudden torrential rain. This resulted in sudden hot temperature to cold vice versa. This type of weather isn't kind to me as I am fragile to sudden temperature changes.

The effects are immediate and without mercy. I just recently got well from a sudden fury of hiccups to get my nose tricking with water like a leaked tap. My nose is now running, such an annoying symptom to highlight the ever changing weather.

Besides the constant trickling, I sneezed countless times and this makes others around me uncomfortable. My mind also seems very fuzzy during work. Sometimes I just felt so fuzzy that I blanked out while talking to my colleague. 

This month hasn't been treating me well either, it has challenged my patience and giving me a fix. I can't complain though as flu has been a part of me since I'm small. I still remember sneezing a nose full of mucus onto a girl's pinafore and she hated me for life during primary.

When I have flu, my eyes turn red, my nose gets so itchy, people even start to pity me as if I have fallen into a deep calamity and cried my eyes to death. Living patiently with this sensitive weather change symptom is accepting myself the way I am physically. 

Still, I am so sorry to be such a burden when I am down with flu.

Moment of hiccups

Yesterday, I've took my first sick leave since I started working for the company. It is not due to me being so sick that I can't even come over for work but it is because I've got an unstoppable hiccup all of a sudden. I'm also not sure where did I manage to get this kind of silly phenomena to myself.

It all started that evening after gym, I went over to a Tom Yam restaurant for something nice warm and spicy for dinner. I had that really spiced up tom yam and ate it with rice. I didn't feel anything awkward until I started to hiccup on the way back home. I breathe in and try to stay my breathe for as long as I can to rid of it.

To my dismay, it didn't stop and I kept hiccuping until I reach home. I even tried to swallow up air, drink lots of water but to no avail. Those hiccups just kept coming and I can't find a way to stop myself from hiccuping. I was so frustrated and a bit mad-driven by hiccups.

The hiccup didn't stop even when I wanted to go to bed. I went to sleep hiccuping and the next day, woke up hiccuping. I was so angry that I gurgled two 1 liter bottles of water but that didn't resulted well. As a consequence I was so full that every-time I hiccuped water+stomach acid flooded my mouth. I am so disgusting and disgusted.

I went to work hiccuping, attended the morning meeting hiccuping and people around me just felt uncomfortable just hearing me wheeze and shake due to the hiccup. I just can't stand it and rush as fast as I can  to hide in my office. Still colleagues and more people came to see me, hiccuping myself away for answers and signatures.

My diaphragm muscle started to hurt so badly that the next day I took my sick leave and went to the doctor.

Doctor: Hello, what's wrong with you today?

Me      : Doctor, I can't stop hiccuping and my tummy hurts.

Doctor: Hiccuping is due to the nerve endings of your diaphragm sending signals to your diaphragm... bla bla bla. Just take a deep breathe or swallow.

Me      : I did that already Doctor but it didn't work.

Doctor : I'll just give you this medicine.. for your gastric.. bla bla bla..

Me      : *So you don't know how to fix it.* Zzz..  <-- in my mind.

I got my sick leave from the doctor so I can get some rest and away from the office from curious people eyeing me, just in case I have some chronic virus which can infect them. Some even gave me silly advice that I've gotta go to some hardcore specialist at Australia just to be sure. Damn!!!

So today, I fasted and didn't eat any heavy food but substituted to fruits and water only. I felt better, the hiccups come and go, eventually goes away. It's all about my diet I realized, no one knows me better than me, I shouldn't have ate such spicy yet delicious tom yam serving with an empty stomach.

That is seriously my bad. Suffered too much from hiccuping the last 3 days of my life.

*I wrote doctor in red because I felt like smacking him.

Dangerous dilemma...

It seems like nature is so angry to us humans, feels like, the end is so near, and everything seems awfully dark. At least the future that is, people in staggering numbers perished just like that, earthquakes with its tsunami aftermath just sweeps away what people took a century just to build up, in a matter of seconds, get wiped away.

It feels so, awfully scary and unhappy to be so insecure living in a world, where death is uncertain and can be painful at times. Sometimes, the painfulness of death is better to endure than that of losing someone you love. This life is filled with the wrath of nature, which serves under God's command and no one human can control it.

I was just wondering, in this times of trouble, while I'm waiting to be saved, will I be enduring these painfulness that has happened to people around me. Am I just closing one eye, ignoring all the pain around me, and focusing on making myself comfortable despite what is happening around me. This is indeed a dilemma to behold.