My God and I

Figure 1: A stream to the sea.

I believe God goes beyond all that, all religions teach good things, none of it bad.. I believe that even people who aren't educated or reached out by religion is touched by God.. It is just a matter of rejecting the fact that you're created or not. 

Or believe that you are your own god and that when you die that is the end of it all, these days money can even be god. My mind is so limited and I am brought up with a lot of questions unanswered, but I have faith in God and that I wasn't just created to die or waste my life. 

Be it short or be it long, I hope for a full life.. It may not be perfect but at least through the character of Jesus, I can do my best and live knowing His light, hope and love for me..

I have a few atheist friends, but even when life's troubles come, they pray.. to whom, I think God..

Give thanks

After sometime away from work and nuisance, I manage to get myself together and settle things the way I felt most comfortable. I am sure there is something in the way I treat people that always gets me into this kind of shitty trouble. 

And through it all, I can't find anywhere to fully vent away this troubling thought and stress until finally I went to the backyard, dug a medium sized hole?? and spill it all. As troubling as it seems, "nope", that is absolutely not what I did. I just knelt down and prayed instead.

It was calming when I finally released everything that is troubling me to my Creator. Sometimes I wonder is it only me, or it is true that Almighty actually listens and personally sends a calming spirit into my soul. Without prior knowledge of the higher power, I would be so messed up.

It's strange that these days, I only come to sit on the feet of the Creator during my times of trouble. Once I've passed that stage of sadness, that closeness seem to fade. Still, I can't comprehend my life without the Almighty's touch. 

Thank you God for loving me first.

Sunset alone..

This Sabbath I managed to go back and worship at Bintulu, I wish to spend time with my dad but he has business at Kuching so he's gone by 12 o'clock noon. I'm left a home all alone still I rested and am so glad to be home. Even though I'm alone I managed to close my day of rest at the beach. God is by my side.

Figure 1: Tg. Batu beach sunset.

When I'm alone, I spend a lot of time thinking and praying in my heart. I do not know what comes next in the future and I never dared to anticipate it. Sometimes I worry but it never helps and its been a long time that I've stopped worrying about what is about to come. God lifted that burden away from me.

Figure 2: Tg. Batu beach sunset.

So here I am, sitting down on a rock, watching the sunset in the horizon. I always do that last time when I was alone and lonely. Now I'm still doing it, this gave me a sense of peace and time alone. I'm always praying in my heart even though I can't always say it out in words. Only God knows.

8.8.11

Finally, after forgetting those books about literature *the learning never stops though*, I finally can gather myself up and praise God that I'll finally be an engineer serving in the field that I've been absolutely hollow about during the past few years learning about it. I prayed to God, give me challenges which can make me matured in this field which through Thy guidance I have made it.

I'll be in a totally new environment, working with people I have never met before, learning new power applications and refining myself in this field of great importance especially to the people of this area. I am still learning and still blunt in every way possible. I'll make it, through this hurdle, with God beside me all through this journey of life. I'm sure there will be challenges which will break my inner spirit.

I pray this will be an extraordinary experience for me so that I can grow and experience work, I don't know what I'll expect, but through it all, I pray that God will strengthen me. I trust that in every miracle, there is a need for me to serve, share and also portray God's love to my surroundings. This can only be obtained through the word which will be my guide throughout this life.

The journey will be riddled with thorns and roses and possibilities of learning will never  end. I will start low, as low as possible,structuring every little detail that I can procure, piece it one by one and finally rise slowly. I believe God has a grand plan for me, which I have yet to know, only through the power of prayer and faith I can reap it. Still there's nothing greater than wanting to leave this sinful world.

Dear God, make me more selfless each and every day. I'll miss the other part of me, definitely will do my best for her, soon and very soon, with experience and time, I'll be finally be with her. 

Thank you God, I ask too much than I praise or thank you dear God..

God is good, all the time, God is good..