Faithful

My friend used to say, faith is such a strange thing. If that is so, then it means that to be faithful to someone is strange? That is something to ponder about, having faith makes you believe in something that isn't apparent or seen physically. How does faithful goes into that context?

Figure 1: Shining eyes.

Faithful means that one is steadfast and hold on to that one belief, thing, principle or person. It can come in a lot of form and ways, being faithful means that you will keep your promise and be there until the end no matter what is the outcome.

Figure 2: "She's the one" -Kiokie-.

People have always say that, real men stay faithful, or that loyal and faithful girls cry the most. Still, what strengthens you inside and out or spiritually and physically is faith and strong belief in God. This is where strong men and ladies are born with a strong core.

We do not know what tomorrow may bring, but we have faith that tomorrow will be better and there's always something we can improve. I can't emphasize more about faithfulness to God as if in the context of a loving couple, faithfulness is the key especially when far apart.

Figure 3: Blessed beautiful couple.

Falling once or twice is nothing to be crying about. Nor does winning once or twice in a battle something to brag about but constantly holding on without ado despite the storm and winter coming, that is something legendary.

Dreams of my dream

Figure 1: Dragon's stone.

I have a dream, a wonderful dream. It's not a dream only dreamt once but again and again. I dream about it in my sleep and occasionally I day dream about it. It's unreal yet I believe I can achieve it in time. It's a dream intertwined in a lot of elements.

When I am caught in a day dream, I always focus my eyes in a direction which I didn't intend to focus. I stared away out of the blue unintentionally sparking interest with my eyes. I wasn't aware but it was noticed and as I warped out of my dream, eyes meet eyes.

My focus wasn't spot on, I need to delve in further to improve myself, my personality to be worthy of that position in life. It isn't an easy journey but it is easy to dream about it. Nevertheless, I have hope that one day, my dream will come true. I have set a focus point on you.

Figure 2: Focus on a point.

The End of it All

Figure 1: White a symbol of peace and serenity.

At the end of the road, at the end of time, which is unknown to mortals but in life, there will always be the end of the road. And when it does, when the final breath of life leave your lips, all that is left is your memories  with others which will leave a pang of pain to love ones.

The end of it all is the moment where most people will never want to think about. They never want to think of the end, life will go on forever, that is what people want to believe. They never want to end something that is so beautiful and grand yet sometimes so dreadfully painful for those with terminal sickness.

When you're someone who is serving for others, sometimes others may never see, how you're serving, but for those who are precious to you, they know you're fighting for the people of the nation and it is an honor even though names are forgotten, the deeds aren't.

So my new year resolution is to,

"Start with the end in mind"

"Be a humble and honorable person"

"Think of others more and less of myself"

These three things I strive to conquer, I seek to take control of myself. Which is the hardest part for me to do in my life. 2013, if it is my last year, make it a memorable one for me, so that people will not remember me for who I am, but for what I have done for them.

Figure 2: A beautiful personal message.

"When someone you Love becomes a Memory, that Memory becomes a Treasure."

More than I can be

The weather has been harsh these few weeks at work, hot, stormy and suddenly cold then hot again. Things has been quite peaceful at work after a successful project so I am just in charge in ensuring the operation is going on smoothly.

During the period of the project which I am really stressed out, there are times which I felt that the problems are so endless that there's no where of fixing it or even around it. It feels like a huge mountain toppled up on me and the weight of it is just immense.

I persevere and pushed on even when it is all dark in there and hope seems so dim. There's just no sign of ever finishing up successfully. The burden is too hard and complicated. So I prioritized and organized myself, slowly. Rise up and pick up those little pieces to patch it one by one.

Even without anything to boost my confidence, I just pushed on and have faith. This kind of faith gave me the strength to do things which I never believe I could ever achieve. In the end, with God's assistance, all is well and I worried and got stressed for nothing.

Praise my living God.

Figure 1: Ray of hope.

Helpless & Hopeless

Just a few points to ponder as I look back and think forward into the future..

A) Ever felt helpless and also hopeless at the same time? 

B) Ever walked a path in life where you felt the loneliest despite having people all around you? 

C) Ever given a task to handle alone where you don't have enough know-how and experience to fully execute it? 

Well, enough with the ever, I'm sure each and every one of us have this sort of facing the impossible experience. The agonizing feeling of being helpless and hopelessness is a tough combo when one is facing it together at the same time. It brings more effects to one's sanity as well as brings stress which will age those physical looks.

From my experience, I am constantly dropped in a situation when there are people around me yet I find them unwilling to help me out or even just point me in the right direction. This sucks especially if you're new and still inexperienced. 

However, this is not an excuse to actually slack off and run away from the problem. This is where you as a sane person face that huge mountain of a problem and start digging. Even if you're unsure where is the actual location of the gold, there's a lot of place you can start to analyze and even try to smell the dirt to find that sweet gold.

Never ever be disappointed when we find help from other people, only to be rejected, refused, mocked, spat at or even in worst case scenarios, screamed at. If this happens to you, spring up and remember the words of the genius Einstein,

"I am thankful to all those who said "No", because of them I did it myself."

Once you've get around this thick fog of negativity and actually work out that initiative to find that alternative to your problem it is time to be proud. This is due to that fact that when you walked alone, tasted the bitterness of dirt and run up that huge mountain of impossibility, through all those hardships only to finally find that shiny, yellow gold.

Why am I writing this? I've experienced this before and from this experience one should never be too proud and haughty as to become as the other people that surround you and made you virtually invisible. Be humble and always help those who are experiencing this painful experience.

"God always give me the bitter sweet taste of humility whenever I am haughty."

Life is so meaningless..

Life is so meaningless without love. Not love as in just saying "I love you" nor as love in "first sight". I've already been over those human interpretation of love which are just physical but so hurting in the inside. Without first experiencing this sort of physical love, I would never have known though.

Life is not only learning and acquiring knowledge but also to experience and not making the wrong turn by learning from other people's mistakes. Still, due to my stubbornness I've always been repeating and not learning the easier way. I guess this is the best for me, for I am filled with scars, so life isn't that meaningless.

I recently read a few ways to love, which is based on the Holy Bible and I find it filled with reality instead of infatuation. Ever since I experience spiritual bleeding from the inside, I've searched more for principle in love and feeling is more to second. Seriously, I don't to feel good over some fake love.

I would prefer to then adhere to these few realistic translations of love which can be applied,

- Listen without interrupting    (Proverbs 18)

- Speak without  accusing        (James 1:19)

- Give without sparing             (Proverbs 21:26)

- Pray without ceasing             (Colossians 1:9)

- Answer without arguing        (Proverbs 17:1)

- Share without pretending      (Ephesians 4:15)

- Enjoy without complaint       (Phillipians 2:14)

- Trust without wavering         (Corinthians 13:7)

- Forgive without punishing     (Colossians 3:13)

- Promise without forgetting    (Proverbs 13:12)

If I am to be finding a point or principle, the best is not to find the opinion of humans but of the higher power, even my own solutions and suggestions are not problem free. So I'll lean onto to this heavenly knowledge instead. 

Peace be with you.

In my hands..

Chances come and go, some I took some I left behind. There are chances which people say I should have taken, but what are people to me when I'm doing it and the consequences of the decision will effect me instead of their hides.

In every chances, big or small, I took the liberty to judge each one of them fairly through my own wisdom, listing down the possible pros and cons with God leading me, so I pray, if it is so, and the chances seem to beam me into it, I will take the chance without looking back.

Figure 1: Its in your hands.

It's in my hands but there is a chance that my hands will eventually bleed. The wound will be deep, or even just a small gash, but it is definitely felt. This is unseen, even through the most understanding of others, and can only be healed through strength, perseverance and faith to God.

Through many decisions I've made this year, there are detrimental effects which leads to hurt of myself and others. Most of the time it's due to my own selfishness, in which I choose to favor the weights more to my side instead of thinking of others.

I have to fix myself and care more for others, this is a chance I would take, for the upcoming year, no matter what it's in my hands.