End of the Apri

April have been very good and a little bit naughty to me. I caught numerous viruses and suffered symptoms which even confuses doctors. I am so glad to be able to make it safe and sound. April taught me to be more cautious and think further before proceeding to any sort of engagement.

April gave me hope when I was alone and without anyone else, it gave me the passageway to return to my own roots and seek their support. I am not alone anymore in those big decisions which messed up my mind for a bit. This month has been so good to me.

I am so blessed on this month of April, the beauty of nature and to strive for its preservation has become a part of me. At least it adds one more person to the equation to the protection of mother nature. Life is indeed precious and we can't close our eyes when it is in danger.

A simple quote from one of the greatest people on earth,

"Nothing in this world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity."

                                                                               -Martin Luther King, Jr-

Forgive & forgetfulness

I've recently been approach by a fellow colleague who has been ignoring every initiative and attention I've given to provide the right hints to the successful completion of his project. Due to his late submission for his part of the project, other team members who have already completed their share are also affected.

This leads to a week-long late project submission to an important client which resulted in a very bad impression to my team and me as the project head. I am not angry nor disappointed due to this but my other team-members are enraged. As my personality goes, I'll just keep silent and see how it goes.

Today, the project is already finalized and due to better solutions our team has provided, we headed out to the township to celebrate. Since I don't drink, I've had a great dinner and even got forced into singing. The fellow ignorant colleague was also tagging along.

It seems that he wasn't aware that people around him were heated up but because of the project success things cool down. I though he forgot totally about it until I think he drank a little bit too much and suddenly went up to the stage to grab the microphone, sang a sad song and begged for forgiveness.

Well, that's quite a show, I am astounded as well but still can't say anything much. I'm a forgiving person and I will feel bad if I'm not forgiven. In my heart, even as he ignored me through-out the course of the project due to being more experienced and a fraction older, I forgive him.

Even so, despite my forgetfulness, I can't seem to forget what he did even after I've forgiven him. I guess it's just me. Despite how much it irritates, offend or hurt you forgiveness is a must. It must be quick and immediate as one will never know when one leaves this living world.

Figure 1: Courtesy of Google.

Time

Time never waits for me or anyone, it passes so fast that, people age without realizing it, moments which seems to last fade away without enough appreciation and in a blink of an eye things changes. Time is uncontrollable despite how people strive to race it to the finish line, time will always be ahead of you.

I've been so busy planning for my project schedules that time doesn't allow me to enjoy my life the way I used to want it to be. I dislike it but these are the consequences of life, where there are times when I have to give what I have to give and take what I can take.

Despite time being so horridly cruel to me, my project schedule is on time and there are a few more matters to be settled regarding a few flaws here and there. I am lucky to be working in a group and there are matters also assigned to my other colleagues.

If you haven't done something which you wish to do during this certain time-frame, I suggest that you do it despite any limitation, may it be monetary, right time, or right location, I believe that at a certain compromise, just do it regardless as the chance may not come again.

Some people say, time does cruel things to people, effecting their emotions and beauty in such a way, but is it really time's fault? That is the question to be answered. So, if any golden opportunities arises, be sure to grab it, even if not perfectly but at least never regretting not doing anything at all.

The sands of time is flowing in the time-glass this very moment.

Going green

I've posted one picture of these shoes in my previous post but the picture wasn't so good as it was taken by my mobile. So here are better pictures of the Nike SB Dunk High Premium. It was a 2008 release but I was lucky enough to still be able to get it online. 

I chose these pair of soles as my first pair of Nike SB Dunk due to it's unique green colorway matched up with crocodile texture. There's a big contrast between red and green, so the royal red swoosh, laces, soles and in-sole really caught my eyes.

The material type used on these shoes are suede leather mixed with patented croco style leather. The inside of the shoes is made of comfortable smooth padded polyester. Its soles is made of red colored grip rubber soles.

Figure 1: B&W version.

Figure 2: Stony Green.

Figure 3: Mossy Green.

Figure 4: Green Highlight.

Figure 5: Royal Red & Green Texture.

 The photos I've taken are in  random places, some of the places are not so clean with green mosses. Will be going to a few places the end of next month in search of more collectibles. Hopefully there will be something which will complement my collectibles. 

Mother Earth

Mother Earth, thank you for giving me a place to live in this earth of Yours. Thank you for the fresh air which You have provided from your peaceful and loving nature. Thank you for the fresh water which you have brought out through water springs and rivers. Thank you for the atmosphere in which to protect us from the harsh sun.

Figure 1: Nature.

The beautiful sunrise at dawn, birds early in the morning seeking refuge in Your alms and without having anything, You took care of them and without me realizing, You took care of me. The rain when it gets scorching hot, I keep complaining when it rains, and again failed to see the bigger picture of Your plans.

Mother Nature, thank You for providing mankind the power to gather necessities to live in your beautiful Earth. Please forgive us for getting greedy and taking more than required. Forgive us for not taking care of the environment due to our selfishness. Forgive us for only thinking of ourselves.

Dear Creator, thank You for creating us according to Your image. Thank You for giving us wisdom and authority above all the creatures of Earth. Thank you for Your continuous care and blessing to us. Forgive us when we misuse our wisdom and try to change the Earth not according to Your will.

Forgive us for wanting more and never satisfied rather than appreciate what we have. Forgive us for all the wrong things which are happening in this world due to sin. Your anger is seen in earthquakes and disasters which occurs often lately. Your words of judgement are in the thunders.

Mother Earth, 

I have a lot to thank You. I wish my mind is born to praise You. My mind constantly revolves on small matters around me that I failed to see the bigger picture which You are showing to me everyday.

Down with flu

Days has been a change of weather from hot sunny days to sudden torrential rain. This resulted in sudden hot temperature to cold vice versa. This type of weather isn't kind to me as I am fragile to sudden temperature changes.

The effects are immediate and without mercy. I just recently got well from a sudden fury of hiccups to get my nose tricking with water like a leaked tap. My nose is now running, such an annoying symptom to highlight the ever changing weather.

Besides the constant trickling, I sneezed countless times and this makes others around me uncomfortable. My mind also seems very fuzzy during work. Sometimes I just felt so fuzzy that I blanked out while talking to my colleague. 

This month hasn't been treating me well either, it has challenged my patience and giving me a fix. I can't complain though as flu has been a part of me since I'm small. I still remember sneezing a nose full of mucus onto a girl's pinafore and she hated me for life during primary.

When I have flu, my eyes turn red, my nose gets so itchy, people even start to pity me as if I have fallen into a deep calamity and cried my eyes to death. Living patiently with this sensitive weather change symptom is accepting myself the way I am physically. 

Still, I am so sorry to be such a burden when I am down with flu.

Worthless words

Words can be expressed in a lot of ways, it can be either spoken or written by hand. Words are meant to be passed on to someone or a group of people who can benefit and understand from them. Words can be meaningful, hurtful, and at the same time beautiful. Words often contains information and knowledge but it depends solely on the listener or reader to decipher it carefully.

I love reading and listening to words which can give me different type of feelings regarding a certain situation which I couldn't experience myself. It makes me able to feel at-least something different than I normally feel. There are beautiful words which are spoken out randomly while I was out, and I seem to feel that certain moment even though it is a bit awkward.

Still I trust words from a lot of people who doesn't seem to mean them and to me, those words are very painful and it hurts my heart. Words which are meant to last and when time passes don't are often spoken when the moment seems to be at its peak of happiness. During these situations I always agree, but most of the time I will be disappointed as I will be the only one still holding those words.

When meaningful words arise, when it doesn't seem to mean much anymore, I've learned to ignore them and those painful effects of worthless words I just throw them away. Worthless words are like well-scribbled paper just fit to be thrown in the trash can. Those experiences made me stronger and no longer vain to feelings. 

Colder, stronger and more immune to words. I lost respect those who said words while holding on to it rather than just letting those words out like a wind and turncoat on the next move. Holding to your words can be painful depending on your situation. To hold on to words which comes out of your lips is something noble these days.

What are words when there's just spoken out without holding on to it? Worthless words...